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Demons are Everywhere! A look back on my fight in the spiritual realm

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When I was Pentecostal, I saw demons everywhere.

They wandered around my bedroom looking for ways to oppress me. They tempted me on the days I did not spend time reading the bible. They dwelled in homes of families in bondage to “generational sin”, and they used sex and alcohol to torment my friends.

“There is a war waging in the spiritual realm, a realm that is more real than the one we can see,” my pastor used to say all the time.

This was thrilling to me. I loved the idea of an invisible world, of angels and demons fighting for souls. When I prayed, I pictured the demons withering and melting away, like the Wicked Witch of the West. The hours I spent in intercessory prayer as a teenager did not contribute to my high school studies, hone my artistic talent, or help me finish my chores  – but none of that mattered, because I knew I was provoking major changes in the unseen spiritual realm, the realm that was more real than the one of flesh and blood.

As a young teen, I was enraptured by a magical kind of Christianity that promised power over the spirits if I “pressed into the things of God”. Looking back, I see that I was ensnared in fundamentalism stitched with Gnosticism and colorful threads of superstition and Jesus-sorcery.

Demons and evil spirits came in all forms. I sensed them when I prayed. I talked about them with my friends. Sometimes I even “saw” them. Here are a few demons I heard about from the pulpit or experienced in my own life:

The Spirit of Alcoholism
The Spirit of Gambling
The Spirit of Lust
The Spirit of Pride
The Spirit of Homosexuality
The Spirit of Greed
The Spirit of Disunity
The Spirit of Disobedience
The Spirit of Rebellion
The Spirit of Doubt
The Spirit of Intellectualism
The Spirit of Materialism
The Spirit of Legalism
The Spirit of the Lukewarm

It was all fun and cool when I thought I was binding the principalities of darkness and maiming the Spirit of Lust in my life after spending an hour on my knees, but the demon doctrine isn’t so fun when it’s turned on you. I started to question the validity of the spiritual realm when at age 18, I got heavily disciplined at church for some “spiritual sin” my youth pastor “sensed” I was dabbling in.

“It’s the Spirit of Apathy, and it’s an ugly spirit on you,” he said.

The same evening, my leaders told me I had succumbed to the Spirit of Gossip and the Spirit of Exclusivity.

“Do you really think that ‘gossip’ is the result of some kind of deep, demonic activity?” I asked. “Because that sounds pretty whack to me.”

This obviously made me a strong force for the Spirit of Rebellion.

Everything was some big, dramatic spiritual issue. Nothing was random. Nothing was just kids being kids. Nothing was coincidence. Nothing was a clinical mental disorder. Nothing was just imperfect people doing stupid stuff. Everything was a result of the spiritual war waging around us.

This is why I say I don’t believe in that demon stuff anymore. A couple weeks ago, when I wrote about hearing fundamentalist voices, a few of my friends said they were praying that I would overpower the demonic whispers with the Truth of God.

“Oh I hadn’t thought about it that way,” I said. “I’m pretty sure the voices are just coming from my own exposure to years of a certain unhealthy thought pattern.”

Who knows, I may be wrong. But for now, it feels so peaceful to not have to constantly fight a war that I can’t even see.


Photo by Benjamin Von Wong via Flickr Creative Commons. 

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  1. Donia Monetha on April 22, 2014 at 4:17 pm

    I agree with you , it’s so nice to live in freedom now ! Thank you for being so honest !

  2. Donia Monetha on April 22, 2014 at 4:17 pm

    I agree with you , it’s so nice to live in freedom now ! Thank you for being so honest !

  3. Rebecca Erwin on April 22, 2014 at 4:55 pm

    For me, it was glazed over at church but deeply focused on within my home-Wonderland- experience. The Parentals filled in gaps of church teaching with radio programs, sermons on tapes and a certain television station-which will not be named.

    My Parentals told me that speaking in tongues was a secret language between God and I that Holy Spirit used. The devil and demons couldn’t hear it. It did help me deal with the insanity of Wonderland. Those whispered words brought me peace so I could sleep. They anchored me when reality went sideways.

    But as to the spirit of rebellion, fear, depression, hatred of men…yup-that one was spoken over my mom and Parentals brought it home to annoint us and cast it out of us as well because, you know, generational stuff.)

    Anyway… I guess I need to write a bit more about this.

    Thank you for this post. Thank you for your words. Thank you for the validation. I still struggle to this day when it comes to prayer. I cannot even deal with the “spiritual warfare” topic-just walk out of the room.

  4. lthompson513 on April 23, 2014 at 11:17 am

    “But for now, it feels so peaceful to not have to constantly fight a war that I can’t even see.” That’s a powerful ending to a powerful post, my friend.

    • Deanna Keys on March 7, 2017 at 10:42 am

      she has surrendered to her Hell assigned demons and they WILL give her peace…for now.

  5. Jacob Tucker on April 23, 2014 at 1:50 pm

    I’ve never understood the explanation of “demons” or “spiritual warfare” or anything of the like for the problem of being human. But lately, I’ve wondered if that line of thought is used just to have an answer for everything. I don’t know if that’s the case here, but being able to come up with some answer for life’s biggest questions seems to almost be an enormous preoccupation in the church. I know it’s not as comfortable, but sometimes we just need dwell in the questions and realize how much value there is in the discussion regardless of whether we can ever come up with answer.

    Great post!

    • Martha Yandell on April 22, 2015 at 8:47 am

      I value your thought, but my issue is there is never a complete answer that ends. This is a constant battle.

  6. Jacob Tucker on April 23, 2014 at 1:50 pm

    I’ve never understood the explanation of “demons” or “spiritual warfare” or anything of the like for the problem of being human. But lately, I’ve wondered if that line of thought is used just to have an answer for everything. I don’t know if that’s the case here, but being able to come up with some answer for life’s biggest questions seems to almost be an enormous preoccupation in the church. I know it’s not as comfortable, but sometimes we just need dwell in the questions and realize how much value there is in the discussion regardless of whether we can ever come up with answer.

    Great post!

  7. Apostle Jean Dieudonne on October 22, 2014 at 6:55 am

    We often hear or talk about the realm of spirit, but not fully understands it.. There is this book called: Deep into the Realm of Spirit.. Very interesting book.

  8. Glinda Mauldin on December 17, 2014 at 4:33 am

    First, I’d like to thank you for doing such awesome work at such a young age. The spiritual realm is very real! I’m sure the demons were very pleased when you “quit” fighting them. It sounds to me that you were getting so strong in your gift that they attacked you through you pastor. You’ve seen them try to attack you directly but God protected you, so they had to attack you indirectly. They used your pastor, (which sounds like the spirit of religion, which is a very ugly demon) to attack you and to make you doubt the work of God. It probably only worked because you looked at him as an authority and someone who knew more. “Spirit of Apathy” I beg to differ when you spent so much time praying for others and fighting demons, that’s interest and concern! What he saw was FOCUS! You were focused on your job and plan for your life. Think about it, they hate going back to hell so they did what they could do to get rid of you as a warrior. I hate that happened and I hope God speaks to you through this post to start back, start back fighting! You have an anointing on your life that people dream of having. Don’t let Satan steal that from you. God can still use you to help us fight them off. I’m reading these Chronicle Brothers books by Wendy Alec and her other book called Heaven. You won’t to reboot your fight and put back on your Heavenly Armor, read those books to give you a good picture as to why your job is so important. They are great reads! Whatever you do, start back helping us fight!!! We need you!!! I’ll be praying for your return to the battlefield! God Bless You, May Jesus Keep You, and May the Holy Spirit Abide Within You!! I love you, sister!

    • Charles Mankin on November 2, 2016 at 10:14 am

      You have no idea how empowering your post was to me. I am a 50 year old male that has known my whole life and felt the calling from GOD. Over 9 months ago I begin seeing them everywhere. EVERYWHERE and attached to everyone. I mean everyone has them attached to there persons. They hide in the corners of your rooms watching, surrounding staring into peoples eyes. I watched this is great horror thinking I was going insane. I traveled the pastor conversations route to no avail. Then I begin to hear the LORD GOD ALMIGHTY JESUS CHRIST SPEAKING TO ME IN PRAYER…. I wont disclose as it is between MY LORD AND REDEEMER and my self. However I will say that I have learned that WE ARE NOT POWERLESS! FAR FROM IT!

      They know I see them. Look on my Google page for the pictures I have taken of them. They are exactly as you think. Horned, foul, skull wearing demons that I have ZERO FEAR OF! I MEAN ZERO! I HEAR THE LORD EVERYDAY TELL ME TO PRESS FOR THE MARK! KNOW I AM WITH YOU! FEAR NOT YOUR ENEMY! FEAR THEM NOT! … I do not. I fight! I focus on them and push them away and cast them out and wrestle with them. They are real, they are here and anyone ! ANY PERSON THAT diminishes this is a liar! Have noting to do with them. Pray for them…..War a good warfare My little child. War a good warfare. That is just a small portion of what the LORD JESUS HAS TOLD ME! I AM WITH YOU ALWAYS! FEAR NOT!

      Thank you. As I am sure you know, anyone that is online searching on such a subject is 9 times out of 10 battling exactly what we are discussing, and I needed a small boost today as I am fasting for 21 days and they hate it. They attack me relentlessly when I fast.

      GOD BLESS YOU AND THANK YOU!

    • Deanna Keys on March 7, 2017 at 10:35 am

      Thank you for your beautiful words of wisdom. I hope she opens her heart and hears you.

    • Cody Darrohn on May 12, 2017 at 7:15 pm

      i need some serious help same stuff in my life but i actually see the demons in peoples eyes and how they act smell and move.. they wanna put me on pills and call me bipolar.. i dont take my pills but act like i do and oh you seem to be doing better. its the world thats crazy ppl. to remain dumb and blind is crazy. i need others to help me fight this. meditation and prayer is key to knowing and seeing more

  9. Glinda Mauldin on December 17, 2014 at 4:33 am

    First, I’d like to thank you for doing such awesome work at such a young age. The spiritual realm is very real! I’m sure the demons were very pleased when you “quit” fighting them. It sounds to me that you were getting so strong in your gift that they attacked you through you pastor. You’ve seen them try to attack you directly but God protected you, so they had to attack you indirectly. They used your pastor, (which sounds like the spirit of religion, which is a very ugly demon) to attack you and to make you doubt the work of God. It probably only worked because you looked at him as an authority and someone who knew more. “Spirit of Apathy” I beg to differ when you spent so much time praying for others and fighting demons, that’s interest and concern! What he saw was FOCUS! You were focused on your job and plan for your life. Think about it, they hate going back to hell so they did what they could do to get rid of you as a warrior. I hate that happened and I hope God speaks to you through this post to start back, start back fighting! You have an anointing on your life that people dream of having. Don’t let Satan steal that from you. God can still use you to help us fight them off. I’m reading these Chronicle Brothers books by Wendy Alec and her other book called Heaven. You won’t to reboot your fight and put back on your Heavenly Armor, read those books to give you a good picture as to why your job is so important. They are great reads! Whatever you do, start back helping us fight!!! We need you!!! I’ll be praying for your return to the battlefield! God Bless You, May Jesus Keep You, and May the Holy Spirit Abide Within You!! I love you, sister!

    • Charles Mankin on November 2, 2016 at 10:14 am

      You have no idea how empowering your post was to me. I am a 50 year old male that has known my whole life and felt the calling from GOD. Over 9 months ago I begin seeing them everywhere. EVERYWHERE and attached to everyone. I mean everyone has them attached to there persons. They hide in the corners of your rooms watching, surrounding staring into peoples eyes. I watched this is great horror thinking I was going insane. I traveled the pastor conversations route to no avail. Then I begin to hear the LORD GOD ALMIGHTY JESUS CHRIST SPEAKING TO ME IN PRAYER…. I wont disclose as it is between MY LORD AND REDEEMER and my self. However I will say that I have learned that WE ARE NOT POWERLESS! FAR FROM IT!

      They know I see them. Look on my Google page for the pictures I have taken of them. They are exactly as you think. Horned, foul, skull wearing demons that I have ZERO FEAR OF! I MEAN ZERO! I HEAR THE LORD EVERYDAY TELL ME TO PRESS FOR THE MARK! KNOW I AM WITH YOU! FEAR NOT YOUR ENEMY! FEAR THEM NOT! … I do not. I fight! I focus on them and push them away and cast them out and wrestle with them. They are real, they are here and anyone ! ANY PERSON THAT diminishes this is a liar! Have noting to do with them. Pray for them…..War a good warfare My little child. War a good warfare. That is just a small portion of what the LORD JESUS HAS TOLD ME! I AM WITH YOU ALWAYS! FEAR NOT!

      Thank you. As I am sure you know, anyone that is online searching on such a subject is 9 times out of 10 battling exactly what we are discussing, and I needed a small boost today as I am fasting for 21 days and they hate it. They attack me relentlessly when I fast.

      GOD BLESS YOU AND THANK YOU!

    • Deanna Keys on March 7, 2017 at 10:35 am

      Thank you for your beautiful words of wisdom. I hope she opens her heart and hears you.

    • Cody Darrohn on May 12, 2017 at 7:15 pm

      i need some serious help same stuff in my life but i actually see the demons in peoples eyes and how they act smell and move.. they wanna put me on pills and call me bipolar.. i dont take my pills but act like i do and oh you seem to be doing better. its the world thats crazy ppl. to remain dumb and blind is crazy. i need others to help me fight this. meditation and prayer is key to knowing and seeing more

  10. Charles Mankin on November 2, 2016 at 10:03 am

    OH My are you so wrong, and right in the same breath. They are here. Always have been. The vale or scales on your eyes was pealed back for GODS reasons. NEVER EVER GIVE THEM POWER OVER YOU AS THEY HAVE NONE. They are all around us. Seeking to destroy us and our souls. The real us. I see them everywhere. I battle them everyday, every night. The are excatly as Paul spoke of and above all JESUS CHRIST!
    War a good war fare. Nothing and I mean noting is abratrary in your life. Every person you meet, place you go, things you experince is either of GOD or of these creatures misleading you. WAR ~! WAR A WONDERFUL WAR FARE YOUNG LADY!

    • Arthur Glinda Mauldin on November 5, 2016 at 6:20 am

      You are so welcome! To God be the Glory! Keep fighting the good and much needed fight! We all have our assignments and duties and I am thrilled to see what an amazing job you are doing with yours!! Just as it says in Luke 10:19, Behold, I give unto you power to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy: and NOTHING shall by any means hurt you. He gives us the power to fight those principalities of darkness and expects us to do so! So thank you for standing on your post, good and faithful servent!

      God Bless!!!

  11. Charles Mankin on November 2, 2016 at 10:03 am

    OH My are you so wrong, and right in the same breath. They are here. Always have been. The vale or scales on your eyes was pealed back for GODS reasons. NEVER EVER GIVE THEM POWER OVER YOU AS THEY HAVE NONE. They are all around us. Seeking to destroy us and our souls. The real us. I see them everywhere. I battle them everyday, every night. The are excatly as Paul spoke of and above all JESUS CHRIST!
    War a good war fare. Nothing and I mean noting is abratrary in your life. Every person you meet, place you go, things you experince is either of GOD or of these creatures misleading you. WAR ~! WAR A WONDERFUL WAR FARE YOUNG LADY!

    • Arthur Glinda Mauldin on November 5, 2016 at 6:20 am

      You are so welcome! To God be the Glory! Keep fighting the good and much needed fight! We all have our assignments and duties and I am thrilled to see what an amazing job you are doing with yours!! Just as it says in Luke 10:19, Behold, I give unto you power to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy: and NOTHING shall by any means hurt you. He gives us the power to fight those principalities of darkness and expects us to do so! So thank you for standing on your post, good and faithful servent!

      God Bless!!!

  12. Deanna Keys on March 7, 2017 at 10:26 am

    I am aware of the demons that surround me daily. I too gave in a few years ago and little by little my life fell apart. I could go on and on but when a tree fell on my car, I didn’t realize I had given into spirits that could come and rob me of my joy and livelihood. I blamed God and hated him for a year. Forgive me Heavenly Father. Even though I had been a christian and thought that was enough, I soon realized I wasn’t fighting the demon spirits that did not have control of my soul but had control over my body and possessions. This is why we have to fight the spiritual realm, because they are here to make us sick, broke and alone. I rededicated my life to God and have been fighting these demons that have come at me everyday to make me “give up and give in”. I refuse. They will never stop and neither will I. They are more powerful now than ever because they want to steal my joy and the relationship I have with The Father God, Christ Jesus and Holy Ghost that gives me strength from day to day. I pray you find your true joy and not the peace that is the calm before the storm.

  13. Deanna Keys on March 7, 2017 at 10:26 am

    I am aware of the demons that surround me daily. I too gave in a few years ago and little by little my life fell apart. I could go on and on but when a tree fell on my car, I didn’t realize I had given into spirits that could come and rob me of my joy and livelihood. I blamed God and hated him for a year. Forgive me Heavenly Father. Even though I had been a christian and thought that was enough, I soon realized I wasn’t fighting the demon spirits that did not have control of my soul but had control over my body and possessions. This is why we have to fight the spiritual realm, because they are here to make us sick, broke and alone. I rededicated my life to God and have been fighting these demons that have come at me everyday to make me “give up and give in”. I refuse. They will never stop and neither will I. They are more powerful now than ever because they want to steal my joy and the relationship I have with The Father God, Christ Jesus and Holy Ghost that gives me strength from day to day. I pray you find your true joy and not the peace that is the calm before the storm.

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