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De(tales): Doughnut

I’ve long admired Cara Strickland’s De(tales) series, so I was more than happy to contribute to it this week. (You may remember Cara from her guest post awhile back, “Always Asking Why”) I’m telling a story over there about a moment I was ready to give up, and the small ways are saved every day. And…
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Anxiety and Post-Perfectionist Faith: My Interview with Heather Caliri

Today I’m over at Heather Caliri’s “One Woman’s Yes” series talking about anxiety: its causes, its relationship to fundamentalism, and pathways to healing. Heather typed up a lovely Q&A style blog post based on our conversation a few weeks ago. To tell you the truth, she asked me some pointed questions that made me nervous, and…
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Why I Left Pentecostalism

We were the “chosen ones,” the ones who lived in the “Secret Place of the Lord,” because we prayed in tongues and knew Jesus intimately. At the altar, our hands shook as heavenly visions came down on us. We fasted, we prayed for healings and breakthroughs and claimed powerful things in the name of God.…
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The Ravaging Tornado of Anxiety

As fall rolls in, I am beginning to feel like myself again. I’m about a month into my routine of therapy and medication. Panic still comes and goes, but not to the crippling level it did before. I am so thankful. What kept my heart racing before? Oh, anything. Mainly death, the future, the past,…
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Getting Help

I’ve taken a break from blogging, as you may have noticed. For the past month, I’ve been confronting my anxiety with counseling, medicine, deep breaths, and radical self-care. I am still writing, just not for the Internet right now. A lot of people are talking about mental health right now in the aftermath of Robin…
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Hope and Friendship on the Slippery Slope

“Remember the revivals?” my friend Dee asks me. We are drinking iced coffee on a Sunday morning in the small town we met, the town of our fiery Pentecostal days. The last time I was at this coffee shop, I was a teenager, sipping a strawberry smoothie and listening to my youth pastor talk about…
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That's Good Enough For Today: Anxiety

Sometimes the anxiety comes and seizes me and I feel so small against it. Something little will trigger it, a worry about the future, a regret of the past, a disappointment in the present – and out of nowhere I’m having to practice Lamaze breathing in the middle of Starbucks. Once it descends, I can’t…
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When Your Faith Doesn't Move Mountains

The gypsy had a layer of skin where eyes normally should go. He also had stringy hair with yellow flakes falling out, and a dirty unbuttoned white shirt. His home was made of cardboard, and his kitchen was a fire pit. The least we could do was heal his eyes. This was my second Teen…
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Do you remember?

This one is for those who have fallen away from a charismatic faith. Do you remember the days? The days the Holy Spirit was an intimate force in your life that spoke to you. Sometimes it whispered for you to approach a stranger and bless them with a few dollars. Other times it quietly, but…
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Domesticating God

My friend Caris Adel is a gifted storyteller and I am so excited to share her words with you today for our series on From Grape Juice to Red Wine. I so relate to her journey of finding a God who is not contained to a book. Do you? Read the piece first and then…
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